In telling I broke the symbiosis between shame and the
abuse involves abusive physical, emotional, mental,
spiritual, or sexual activity done in a repetitive
pattern often incorporating violence, ceremony and/or
Ritual abuse functions in an atmosphere of secrecy
and complicity and exists covertly in many social,
economic, cultural, religious and/or ethnic communities.
Ritual abuse can be hidden under the guise of acceptable
Individuals and groups practicing ritual abuse
do so in secrecy. The abusers are primarily motivated
by power, status and personal or spiritual gratification.
The degree of cruelty and bizarreness of these
activities make reports of ritual abuse difficult
to comprehend and accept.
A safe environment can be created within our
communities by informing and educating the public
and criminal justice system.
Survivors need to be provided
with therapeutic and social support as well
as civil and criminal amnesty when reporting
abuse is any physical, emotional, mental, spiritual
or sexual activity done in a repetitive pattern,
often involving violence, ceremony and/or religious
I died as I was born.
I saw the light,
Quickly my soul was torn.
Softly in the night,
Pain became my friend.
Sadness and devastation my end.
Clutching at beauty of rock and tree,
To ease the cold within.
Searching for the light,
Finding the fire.
Burned again and again.
Fireflies, flowers, snakes and rats,
Never will it end.
I remember when butterflies
When sap ran sweetly from the tree,
I held my puppy close to me, for comfort.
I remember when blood
ran from my mouth
Like ice cream dripping
From a cone on a hazy afternoon.
I remember riding my horse
in the shade of the wood
Picnic lunches all alone
My fantasy land of Robin Hood
Castles and guard we all stood.
I remember people all
dressed in black
I want to turn back
I remember the knives
The will of the group
The chanting, the dancing
This was no fun group.
I remember the sounds,
of screams in the dark
Of death and destruction
On a Saturday night.
I remember crucifixions
In God's Holy name
Face up on the floor
Nailed in my pain.
I remember the joy of
an evening bonfire
The songs so softly sung
By beetles in the tree.
I remember the soft glow
Of candles lit for me.
The blindness I embraced, so I could not see
The complete and utter desolation before me.
I remember droplets falling
like tears from a child
Blood warm and salty
In remembrance of me.
I remember words in a
kind gentle tone
This is the body and blood
I lift up my eyes unto the Lord
Take ye and eat this in remembrance of me.
I remember the pain searing
We locked it in the deepest hole.
An everlasting kingdom, not for she.
Deliver me from evil
Thy rod and staff will comfort me
I lift her up unto the Lord
Have mercy on me.
I stand today before you
Naked in my truth
Pain of my life
Coursing and ripping through my soul
Binding me to self.
I am empty and alone
Trusting in no one
Never to share?
I learn in the warm embrace
To stand united
In my reality and yours
To feel the warmth of their being
Pulsating with life.
- Ritual Abuse
How and why? Why is it so hard
to believe that ritual abuse happens? This is
not new. Its techniques are well known and used
in other areas, for example during W.W.I and
II. People need to stretch their level of awareness.
Perpetrators are motivated
by power, money and status. Ritual abuse involves
violence, pain, and control. It is covert, and
sometimes profit making. It is sometimes hierarchical,
and involves manipulation. It is reality distorting,
morality destroying, and is generational, extending
over a lifetime.
Ritual abuse is any abuse carried out in a
ritualistic way. It can be repetitive and involve
mind control, programming and multiple perpetrators.
It is not necessarily religious.
The pattern of abuse sets up fear, and can
trigger reactions in survivors. Some rituals
are satanic in nature. Public disbelief and
This type of abuse is subversive
and destructive. It is secretive and silent.
People do not believe it could happen to them.
They need something to relate to in order to
understand the issue. There is inequity in the
way society views these issues.
is justified in the minds of its perpetrators.
They possess a subversive morality,
a twisted spirituality or motivation, and have
a need to belong. Ritual abuse is about survival,
for the survivor, but for the perpetrators - its
about power and status.
Ritual abuse exists everywhere, usually evil masking
as normality. It could occur in churches, public
buildings, cemeteries, the woods, morgues and other
is capable of ritual abuse: doctors, lawyers, politicians,
can be done? Survivors
must speak out and inform the public. The signs
and symptoms of this type of abuse appear in music,
types of movies, and may also be physical, such
as repetitive reproductive problems, weight problems
to hide pregnancy, bed-wetting, interest in feces
and/or fascination with blood and others. The
facts need to be distributed constantly.
must create a safe environment within our communities
for survivors by informing and educating the public
and criminal justice systems.
system must provide therapeutic and social support
as well as civil and criminal amnesty for survivors.
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A Personal Account of Healing From Ritual Abuse.
Press Gang Publishers.
Burnham, Rebecca. Ritual Abuse
and The Rites of Passage. BC Report, June
22, 1992, vol. 3 no. 42, p. 38-9.
Clay, Colin. More Than A Survivor:
Memories of Satanic Ritual Abuse and the Paths Which
Lead to Healing. Anglican Journal, April 1997, vol.
123 no. 4, p. 14.
Fennell, Tom. Satan Factor:
Bizarre Cults Promote Child Sex Abuse. Macleans,
June 22, 1992, vol. 105 no. 25, p. cover, 29.
Jadelinn. Spirit Alive: A Womans
Healing From Cult Ritual Abuse. Womens Press,
Kendrick, Martyn. Nobodys Children
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of Canada, 1998.
LaRoche, Michelle. Healing
From Ritual Abuse: Reaching for the Light.
Healthsharing, Spring-Summer 1993, vol. 14 no. 1,
Marron, Kevin. Ritual Abuse. Toronto:
Seal Books, 1988.
Oksana, Chrystine. Safe Passage to
Healing: A Guide For Survivors of Ritual Abuse.
New York, N.Y.: Harper Perennial, 1994.
Olson, Lorna. Community Responds
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Windspeaker, March 1995, vol. 12 no. 23, p.10.
Richardson, Anna. Double Vision:
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Steacy, Anne. Questions of
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Experience of Ritual Abuse (Satanism). Canadian
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Wright, Lawrence. Remembering Satan.
New York: Knopf, 1994.
THE WAY IT WAS
I was born with No Name,
I was useless to Them all.
Hope was lost forever,
being lied to made me fall.
Backward I fell
feeling insignificant and wrong,
Only wanting to gain hope
feeling tired and afraid all along.
With faith I gain hope
as I look up for rainbows in the sky
Being lied to and tricked so much
only makes me want to die.
His hands hurt
Held her down
Tied her up
Waved her away
Passed her by
Her hands hurt
Clinched in pain
Scarred and bruised
Cut and bled
Cracked and dry
His legacy to her
He can keep
Her hands healed
Helped, held and freed
Pulled close and reached out
His legacy, her reality